A few weeks ago, I temporarily moved a mile down the street to dog-sit Molly, while my son and his family went on vacation. I’m on a retreat, I realized, when I sat out on their back deck under the towering oak trees. I was surrounded by my daughter-in-law, Wendy’s vegetable plants…green peppers, tomatoes and herbs. All thriving. Does [...]
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God’s Presence In Grief
Posted in Anxiety and Fear, Comfort, Grief and Loss, Hope on September 19, 2011 | 12 Comments »
The Back Pocket of Grief
Posted in Anxiety and Fear, Grief and Loss, Hope on July 15, 2011 | 22 Comments »
Nine years after my status in life changed from “married” to “widow”, I’m able to put my memories of Bill in my back pocket. I take them out at will without pain, and return them there without guilt, or fear of forgetting him. Safe now in the harbor of Heaven, Bill remains for me…as God says of His own…”my [...]
Loss, Generation to Generation
Posted in Anxiety and Fear, Caregiving, Grief and Loss, Hope on May 25, 2011 | 4 Comments »
I was never her daughter-in-law; always her daugher-in-love. Last Sunday, ”mom” would have turned 98, had she lived that long. As it was, she died five years after her second born son…my husband. When she was told of Bill’s imminent death, she laid her head on the dining room table and cried, “Oh, why couldn’t it be me!” Within a few short [...]
Grief Brings Its Own Fears
Posted in Anxiety and Fear, Grief and Loss on January 23, 2011 | 14 Comments »
One of the side effects of losing a loved one, is the fear of suffering another loss. Some time after my husband’s death, the due date of my daughter and son-in-law’s baby approached. My fears soared. With the hospital located forty-five minutes away, what if they don’t make it there in time? Give birth in the backseat of their [...]
A Life In Balance
Posted in Anxiety and Fear, Grief and Loss on July 11, 2010 | 1 Comment »
The winter of my bed rest is past. (Running With Gerbils, May 1, 2010) Spring and summer have brought partial relapses of the nausea and fatigue, as I step out in trial and error. I’m learning how much I can do in a day and when to stop before I return to my here-to-fore busy [...]
Running With Gerbils: The Wheel Of Grief
Posted in Anxiety and Fear, Grief and Loss on May 1, 2010 | 6 Comments »
“I feel like I’m a gerbil on an exercise wheel, ” my friend Amy says as she stumbles through the first year after her husband’s death. “I’m not getting anywhere going forward, and I can’t go backwards. I’m gonna crash and burn if I try and get off!” I crashed and burned because I didn’t. [...]
A Heart At Peace Gives Life To The Body
Posted in Anxiety and Fear, Grief and Loss on January 19, 2010 | 2 Comments »
My oldest son is a trained counselor. For awhile, he practiced in this field. Now he has a different career. “I save all my therapy for you, mom,” he teases. A few nights ago, he allowed me to yammer on at length about my bouncing off the wall fears over the loss of my health [...]
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Hertel Award 2010 First Place: And Timothy Giggled. Best Children’s Story, Maranatha Christian Writer’s Conference
HERTEL AWARD, 2011. FIRST PLACE, A LIFE REGLUED: FINDING GOD’S GRACE ON A SIDE TRIP THROUGH ANXIETY. BEST ARTICLE, MARANATHA CHRISTIAN WRITER’S CONFERENCE
